Saturday, June 13, 2009

Forgotten Memories

I've always wanted to be more creative. I've never been overly skilled at drawing (my stick figures are hard to recognize) or designing or singing. I spent a lot of years wishing I could do those things and admiring those who can-who am I kidding? I still spend time wishing I could do those things. One of my room mates in college had the most beautiful voice that I have ever heard. (Not the room mate who woke me up singing opera every morning!) Recently I was inspired to learn something new, so I checked out some books on learning to draw from the library.
It brought back a memory. When I went through my items (left in storage when we moved out of the country when I was a teenager) a couple of months ago I found some things I'd forgotten about. One of them was a book on drawing. For a birthday present when I was 9 or so I received a book on drawing along with different lead pencils, sketch pad and a gummy eraser. I don't know the technical terms, but I know they were specific to drawing. I tried to draw an animal in the book but gave up after two tries when it wasn't perfect. I traced it then never touched it again. I wonder sometimes at the things I missed out on- because I wouldn't try it if it wasn't perfect, I gave up. I probably would not have become a famous artist but I missed the opportunity to learn and practice a skill. Regardless of what I missed, I'm embracing the opportunity I have now. To self-teach myself with the freedom to fail as well as give my children the freedom to explore new skills.

Friday, June 12, 2009

Back to the nightly grind

Well I started back to work last night. It's amazing how my body reacts to different situations. When I wasn't working I didn't eat after dinner (even if I stayed active) and went to bed around 11. Getting back into "work routine," I found I was hungry at 9pm (break time) and tired about 10. I really am a creature of habit. 
It was very nice to have some time alone. One of the things I've liked about this job is that I get to be by myself-yes, I'm working but I'm by myself and since it really isn't busy season yet there are very few employees. So I take the opportunity to listen to books, music or sermons on my iPod. No kids demanding my time, no house projects reminding me what else needs to be done...I like the work and they pay me to do it! (And after my one-year review recently I got a raise!) How cool is that!?! 
I feel badly about needing to take two weeks off starting soon though-since I did just get back, but hey that's the great thing about having a part-time job with an amazing boss! I feel very fortunate and blessed. Now let’s see if I can get all the sleep I need.