Monday, October 11, 2010

Fearless

Books by Max Lucado can be picked up and not put down until I’ve finished them. Fearless is no exception. The cover alone invokes the carefree days of childhood. Don’t we all wish we’d realized just how easy life was before we had to grow up? Well I sure do!
The statistics in the book are staggering. For example, “ordinary children today are more fearful than psychiatric patients were in the 1950s.” and “For the first time since the end of the Second World War, parents expect that life for the next generation will be worse than it was for them.” and “Reporter Bob Garfield tracked health articles in major publications and discovered that, among other health issues, 59 million Americans have heart disease, 53 million Americans have migraines, 25 million Americans have osteoporosis, 16 million struggle with obesity, 3 million have cancer and 2 million have severe brain disorders. Reportedly, in total, 543 million Americans consider themselves to be seriously sick, a troubling figure since there are 266 million people in the country. As Garfield noted, ‘Either as a society we are doomed, or someone is seriously double-dipping.’”
I myself struggle with fear. Every day, for reasons that can’t be explained I fear the unknown, the “what ifs”, the “if onlys” just to name a few. I am scared to death and don’t know what to do about it. That’s why I picked up Lucado’s book:I want to but can’t imagine my life without fear. In short, fear defines who I am. But that’s about to change. God gives us a “formula”, if you will, for dealing with our doubts and fears: focus on what He’s already done and get surrounded by those in His family. 
The part of the book that stood out the most to me was in the chapter titled, “Caffeinated Life”.  It addresses the question of “what’s next”.  Here’s an excerpt from the end of that chapter that opened my eyes to a new way of looking at unexplained hardship here on earth. Of course we can’t know if this is accurate, but we are all looking for a bit of hope in our dark valleys, so I clung to the words.
    
                “...what about the tragic [events] God permits?...do such moments serve a purpose?
                They do if we see them from an eternal perspective. What makes no sense in this life 
                will make perfect sense in the next. I have proof:you in the womb. I know you don’t 
                remember this prenatal season, so let me remind you what happened during it. Every
                gestational day equipped you for your earthly life. Your bones solidified, your eyes 
                developed, the umbilical cord transported nutrients into your growing frame...for what
                reason? So you might remain enwombed? Quite the contrary. Womb time equipped 
                you for earth time, suited you up for your postpartum existence. Some prenatal features 
                went unused before birth. You grew a nose but didn’t breathe. Eyes developed, but could
                you see? Your tongue, toenails, and crop of hair served no function in your mother’s belly.
                But aren’t you glad you have them now? Certain chapters of this life seem so unnecessary,
                like nostrils on the preborn. Suffering. Loneliness. Disease. Holocausts. Martyrdom. 
                Monsoons. If we assume this world exists just for pregrave happiness, these atrocities 
                disqualify it from doing so. But what if this earth is the womb? Might these challenges, 
                severe as they may be, serve to prepare us, equip us for the world to come?”
I give the book a thumbs up! In fact, I hope to add it to my own book collection. Read it, then tell me what you think!
          

Old and Out on the Town

I got a text from a very good friend asking if I was free this past weekend for a girls night out. She and I went to high school together but have only seen each other once since then. It was time for a girls night out. With the dads watching the kids, we headed out for our all-night adventure. The last time we went out we were teenagers and crashed a party. Now in our early thirties, we wondered what to do. She doesn’t live in the capital town that I do so we thought we’d do some tourist-y things here. 
We walked the longest pedestrian bridge (that I know of) which is lit up with colorful lights over the river. It was beautiful and allowed us to catch up a bit and also plan our night.
From there we headed to a local comedy club. Neither of us having been there, we were confused by the line of people sitting inside the ticket-purchasing booth telling each other jokes. We don’t know for certain what they were doing since we decided to move on.
Our next stop was the outdoor market downtown. Filled with bars, restaurants and fun night life, we were sure we’d find something interesting. We did. We ate a light extremely tasty dinner at an establishment known for its beer selection. I wasn’t drinking (I’m allergic to wheat, plus I’ve been battling a sore throat so alcohol was out for me-not to mention I’ve had a problem with alcohol in the past) but my friend tried a hard cider which she said was very good, and a “double chocolate stout float” which she said was not very good. We listened to excellent live music in a room with saucers covering every square inch of the walls and ceiling. The part we liked best was the line of tap spouts in the wall with a penny backsplash. Okay so I don’t know if I described that well (and I didn’t get a photo) but hopefully you get the idea.
From there we decided to walk up and down the street enjoying the entertainment and sounds of fun coming from each location. Among them we saw: a dual piano bar; a local sporting team clothing store, another bar with oddly a woman giving a lap-dance to a man standing up (which of course we all know the lap disappears when standing so what would they call that?) and walked over yet another bridge over the river. 
Needing to use the restroom, we headed back to where we’d already paid the cover fee. It was just after 11 when we started yawning. Fortunately we recognized that we’ve matured (some might say we’ve gotten old) enough to not have to stay out until the wee hours of the morning if we didn’t want to. So when we tired of the couple inappropriately making out in the very public corner, and the drama of the ladies around us, we headed for home. 
Overall we called it a success because after all we did stay out almost 6 hours! So we might be old and party poopers but we had fun catching up with each others lives and at the end of the night agreed that we needed to go out again soon! I’m going to make that happen and maybe this time we’ll make it to midnight!...but we’re both okay if we don’t.

Monday, October 4, 2010

I Need You To Love Me

BarlowGirl sing tons of great songs. This one in particular has struck a chord with me the last couple weeks, so I thought I’d share. I might do this often because I’m finding more artists who have songs that “speak to me”. Hope you enjoy them. This one is from the album Another Journal Entry. Lyrics follow.
"Why? Why are You still here with me?
Didn’t You see what I’ve done?
In my shame I want to run,
And hide myself.
Yeah, but it’s here I see the truth,
I don’t deserve You.
But I need You to love me,
And I, I won’t keep my heart from You this time.
And I’ll stop this pretending that I can,
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me
I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me.
I just never saw how You
Could cherish me.
Cause You’re a God who has all things, 
And still You want me.
And I need You to love me,
And I, I won’t keep my heart from You this time.
And I’ll stop this pretending that I can,
Somehow deserve what I already have
Yeah, ye-ea-eah
Your love makes me forget what I have been.
Your love makes me see who I really am.
Your love makes me forget what I have been, oh-oh.
And I need You to love me, yeah
I need You to love me, ye-ea-eah!
And I’ll stop this pretending that I can,
Somehow deserve what I already have
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me, yeah
I need You to… 
oh oh oh oh oh (x4)
Love me, love me, yah"