He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not

I started reading He Loves Me for the second time. The first chapter talks about how most people use the daisy-petal method of determining how God feels about us at any given time. I, for one, am very guilty of doing this. For example, my husband got the job he wanted=He loves me, our house for sale hasn't sold for a year and a half now=He loves me not, I got pregnant=He loves me, I got sick=He loves me not; husband is losing his job=He loves me not, etc. Although there are many problems with this method it also gives me plenty of "evidence" that it's possible to and I should try to earn God's favor. I really must not pay attention when I read the Bible because that theology is in contrast to what it says. Some days it's just harder to trust God than other days...today is one of those days.

Built-in time to blog

My husband and I decided the other day to have the kids journal what they learned in homeschooling each day. I realized that this would be a good scheduled opportunity for me to blog. I haven't been regular about posting blogs lately and so much has been going on. My daughter is now 5 weeks old. Time goes so quickly and sometimes I look at my older children and am struck by how old they are and how soon it will be before they are grown and moving out.

My son is such an intellectual child with a sensitive streak. He desires to please. Recently he's become more of a stereotypical boy by jumping off the walls and flipping pencils off the table. He is so gentle with his baby sister though. He wants to be a dad when he grows up and I can tell he will be a wonderful father when he's older.

My daughter is so very different than I. In many ways, she's who I always wanted to be. She's a gifted dancer and singer. She paints and draws with reckless abandon. She lives life fully and doesn't let anyone slow her down. Of course as her mom it drives me crazy at times! I don't know how to harness her energy in a healthy way. I pray God gives extra grace as I fail her.

My infant's personality is hard to see right now but she is wonderful! I'm extremely blessed to have added another arrow in my quiver! Never more than with small babies do I see how inter-relational God made us all. She does everything in her power to be and remain in my arms-since I am her sole source of food. It's an honor to be a mother and I believe a calling above all others.

It would be so much harder to be a good mother without the support and love of a good husband. My husband is under excruciating stress with the job hunt, moving, etc. He calls it a mid-life crisis. At least he isn't calling it life in general! Could always be worse. :)

When it rains, it pours.

So much transpired since last I wrote that I don't know where to begin. Life certainly takes sharp sudden turns-I can barely keep up. Some events have been good, others I'm still looking for the silver lining but all of them have been life altering. Not one for change with a penchant toward control-freakism, I find myself at a loss in how to handle the shifts. Fortunately, I can blog to work through some of these worries.

So in the following posts expect to see blogs with these themes:

My husband's company

I had my daughter

Moving and life beyond LR

House issues

Choosing to believe Isa. 14:24

Thanks for your patience as I deal with the happenings of my life.