Balancing Act

"If nothing ever changed, there'd be no butterflies." Unknown
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I recently pulled out my old yearbooks. Dusting them off, I read some of the comments people wrote in them. “Never change” and “Always stay the same” were common remarks throughout my junior high years. I viewed that a compliment. Recently though, I heard the phrase, “You’ll never change.” No end-of-year sentiments and definitely not junior high so there’s a new set of rules. This time around it’s not so much a compliment as a plea for something-anything-to be transformed. 

I’ve never been good with the whole “change” concept. I want what’s familiar; seldom stepping outside my comfort zone to experience the life unknown. I know I’m not alone here, many of us have our routines and would prefer others to leave them alone. I’m trying to find the balance between: spontaneity and structure, pleasing others and pleasing myself; giving and receiving, adaptation and stagnation. It’ll happen...and that right there is proof that when the time is right, the right things happen. Not one of us was destined to stay a caterpillar.

We would rather be ruined than changed;

We would rather die in our dread

Than climb the cross of the moment

And let our illusions die.

~W.H. Auden