Like a storm cloud

"I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen, not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else." C.S. Lewis, Weight of Glory, "Is Theology Poetry?"
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I’ve always liked Math and English Grammar. I realized at one point in my life that it has to do with the rules. You can manipulate numbers to get answers; you can manipulate letters to create. I always liked knowing the rules. Probably because of my control-freak nature. There aren’t quite so many clear-cut rules to life. Yes, the golden rule, and the Bible, give us guidance. So why am I having such a hard time with allowing the people in my life to make their own choices? I admit I cared little for when I felt that way in the past. I see the need to break this vicious cycle. I’m like a storm cloud, pretty but threatening. No, we can’t control the weather but I do control how I react to the storms in my life. There are times to run and hide and others it’s completely harmless to stay. It’s clear though that I struggle to see where boundaries are-to really let those I love make the decisions that they think are best. It’s a stretch for me. Much like the new growth I see around me outside. Plants starting to stretch and reach for the sun. Therein lies my answer: As I get stretched, success comes in reaching for the Son.  

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"It's not only [others] who grow. [We] do too. As much as we watch to see what [they] do with their lives, they are watching us to see what we do with ours. I can't tell [them] to reach for the sun. All I can do is reach for it myself." Joyce Maynard