Life as I know it...

...is about to change-drastically! In just a few shorts weeks my family of four will be joined by this little bun in the oven. I'm really excited about her arrival! There was a day not too long ago that having another child would have been completely off the table. For one, I got really sick with my first two and vowed never to have any more of my own children. More importantly though, I wasn't in a place where I would have been able to care for and love another addition to our family. I have enough pride to think that this life of mine is all about me. Well, it isn't and I know that now. It's been a difficult lesson to learn and this far into it I am happy to have learned it. I've had to admit that I'm too selfish sometimes to be a good mom. And being a good mom is my goal. I'm saddened by the state of children today: left alone, given freedom without boundaries, no discipline. Those children are unruly, overweight and terrors to be around! I have to spend a lot of time with my children and I'd really like to enjoy being around them! I'd like them to be a blessing to others as well. I don't enjoy being around most children these days-including mine at times. But when my children are acting the worst is when I am being most self-centered and lazy. I'm working to lead by example, so hopefully as I change my ways, those around me will follow suit. And if not, at least I'll enjoy being around myself when I'm not selfish and lazy!