I'm surrounded by a plethora of opportunities to learn, hear and grow in spirituality. I'm reading a terrific book by Francis Chan called Crazy Love, in a Bible study on the book of Jonah by Priscilla Shirer, teaching Bible to my children during homeschooling, attend a Christian-based 12-step program, watch Beth Moore online. Literally I'm surrounded by people, books, websites, churches, blogs, etc who can and do often point me to God. God Himself shows me who He is through His handiwork of creation.
More often than not, after reading something or watching something I'm struck with just how big God is and how much I need to just let go and trust God in all things. The Bible of course and many other books confirm this, people live lives of peace and tranquility, I KNOW I should and want to do this. I even get application tools. I feel sometimes like I have spiritual bulimia because feels like I take it all in and then just throw it up. I over fill my spiritual stomach and without knowing how to process through it all, I just get rid of it. I know that's a graphic word picture but I'm not going to apologize for using it. It's dangerous and addictive.
Lately I've been trying my best to slow down and take smaller "bites" of spiritual food to really digest them. Truly I want God to change me from the inside out and He is. One day I will have more faith and trust, but for today I'm thankful I have been given enough to get through this minute, asking each minute for the ability to get through the next. I certainly don't need extra stuff to cart around, so I'm choosing to be thankful to get only what I need when I need it.
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