Dysfunctions

I know we all have relationship issues, some are serious, some annoying and some make us laugh. I’m puzzled by a recent exchange. I want to make assumptions, but know I shouldn’t. I feel controlled and manipulated...which may or may not be true. I might find out one day, but then again maybe not. I guess now is the time to choose what’s right instead of basing my decisions on how I feel-especially when I don’t necessarily have all the facts.

I was awake last night thinking about my sick son, wondering if I should go in to check on him. You know we all have premonitions or gut instincts, but often they mean nothing. I don’t know which ones to follow through on and which ones I shouldn’t. I fell asleep pondering all of that and therefore didn’t go in and check on him. Did I miss something special? There was no emergency. I wonder do I follow up on every random premonition or just let some slide? Hmmm.

In other news, I got part of the day off today and when you work seven days a week it is a welcome break. My son is home sick and my husband and I tag-teamed staying home with him while the other went to work. It worked but I felt a sense of mommy guilt-I should be the one staying home with the sick child (it doesn’t matter that my son would rather have Daddy). I’m thankful that my husband had the flexibility to stay home part of the day so I could still go into work for a bit. Turns out it was slow at work anyway, so it wouldn’t really have mattered if I had stayed home. This is looking a little bit like balance...and I like it. Although I was once told that you don’t have balance to walk forward, but a constant unbalance. So perhaps I shouldn’t be looking too much for balance appreciating that unbalance may just take me where I want to go.

Have a wonderful holiday weekend everyone!